Sunday, July 4, 2010

Letter to a Friend

Dear you, I don't know if you will get this, or even know it is for you but here is hoping.

We haven't been friends for a lifetime but some days it feels that way. We are both smart, intelligent people who have shared a journey. We have laughed. we have struggled. We have both kept the lines of communication open, even when it seemed easier not to.

Now, we have entered a new phase and I don't know what it is. It could be the end, it could be confusion, it could be a break, it could be that I committed some mortal sin I am not even aware of ... it could be anything because those lines of communication are closed. I don't know whether to speak or stay silent. I don't know whether it is me or some other aspect of life.

Somehow the last couple of months have felt eggshells because the silence could mean so much.Which is ironic because we have both said to each other a hundred times "have you talked to them about it".

To be honest I am not really sure I even care what direction this new stage goes in, but the waiting is too hard. If you don't move then I will.

This is not an ultimatum, far from it. I am just laying myself out there.

Image: "Letter to Santa" by mickryan

1 comment:

pita-woman said...

Sometimes, friendships weren't meant to last, regardless of how strong/intense they at one time were. For a myriad of reasons... People grow apart, develop different interests, have a falling out that breaks the bonds beyond repair, etc. etc.
Many is the friendships I've had over the years that have fallen to the wayside. Some I've grieved for, others I've almost felt a sense of relief when they've ended (which makes you wonder if it was really a friendship to begin with).
Sorry to ramble, but I hope the friendship in question resolves itself (for better or worse) and you can move on.